my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
today was a good day [besides my i pod officially konking out on me. APPLE SUCKS.], basically because i did nothing. hurhur ain't it good to jes let inertia have it's hold on you. ha ha yes and i must admit, my good mood now is also partially due to an hour's worth of those foodie guides on channel 5. the one by kumar and fiona xie as well as the one before. damnit so tempting can, and mom even agreed to go check them all out wimme during the hols. especially far east sqaure. to tell the truth, i've never heard of it or been there before. no surprises there. i'm seriously thinking of pursuing a career as a gourmet or something. i mean, hello get paid to eat and write? you don't call that a JOB you know? :)
i'm kinda big on all these anti-animal abuse thingies of late, especially shark's fin's soup and the likes. and my dog's becoming ever so more endearing. I JES LOVE MY DOG. but then, who can really resist shark's fin's soup?! especially when i'm an aspiring gourmet! see, i contradict myself all the time. im so messed up. aw my dog jes sat down beside me and he's guarding me. i told you i love my dog so very much.
looking forward to church camp! pure unadulterated fun, lotsa love and fellowship. best part is hwei's going wimme! really hoping for ben, royce and well, some others to go. haven't asked yet, still preparing myself for the worst, i.e. rejection. never been a good patron of it. yes and i've decided to save SOME of my love-of-my-lives for the camp. then everyone can have a share of the joy i feel whenever i even look at them.
God bless the school, half day tomorrow and yeah, it's like confirmed that there'll be no school on thurs and tentatively, fri will be a half day. SCHOOL'S OUTTTTT.
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